Continued....
When I turned 18 years old, I met a new guy, I actually went to school with him when we met. I dropped out of school my senior year, guess why?? Because he did and I thought he was cheating on me so I had to keep an eye on him. I was so stupid I did go and get my GED though, I am proud of that and thank God I did. I stayed with this guy for while. I got pregnant at 18.
When I was 4 and half months along he beat me and threw me down and the baby died. I had went to the hospital because of cramping and bleeding and that was when I found out. That wasn't the first time he had hit me either. The first time was when he called me a slut because I was talking to a guy friend of mine, I slapped him when he called me the name and he turned around and slapped me back and busted my lip. But I had hit him first so I deserved it right? That is what I thought anyways. We had been arguing the time he beat me (when I found out about the baby), he just went off that day. After the first time it was not often but it gradually increased and became worse. He always begged me to come back. And he would cry and I had such a hard time at home I just wanted out of my house.
I hated holidays when I used to love them. That was the times when my family would get together and I was picked out to be the center of attention. I was humiliated, called names, talked about, all in front of my face. Sometimes I would even be called slut and whore. They would say, "you will be pregnant by the time you are 16," well it was 18 but close enough. Glad I didn't disappoint anyone. Anyhow I stayed with him. I found out the baby had died on a Friday. I was supposed to go to the Dr. on Monday and get pills to help move the miscarriage along. That Monday morning on the way to the Dr.'s office, I started to get sick and I was having cramps, I joked that it felt like I was in labor because the pain would come and then suddenly stop and I had heard contractions were like that. As we sat there in the office it started getting worse and I told him if they didn't hurry we needed to go to the hospital because something was wrong.
They finally called me back there and told me to get a urine sample. So I went into the bathroom, and as soon as I sat down the baby came out, and I freaked out I started screaming and yelling and the nurses came running, there was blood every where, and they took me back to a room and made me lie down. I laid there for what seemed like hours before the Dr. came in. I could feel the blood running up my back and I was so scared. She finally came in and said you had a boy and he is dead. She then had to call an ambulance because I had lost so much blood. I got to the ER and they did surgery and took care of me.
Vaughn Pascal
"Yeah, though I walk through the valley of the shadow... Read More
Some people live in and talk about the past so... Read More
Let us grasp and treasure each precious moment of our... Read More
In my years teaching people to be successful, I have... Read More
When disorder comes into our lives, we obviously aren't paying... Read More
Direct Answers - Column for the week of December 29,... Read More
How many of you had the experience growing up of... Read More
Ju was physically abused as a child. She lived with... Read More
When was the last time you smiled at a stranger?When... Read More
A LOST WORLD OF SOULWhen you hear the word 'divination',... Read More
Direct Answers - Column for the week of March 31,... Read More
Notes are very powerful. They express your thanks, encouragement, sympathy,... Read More
We are drowning in it, our grey matter is swollen... Read More
What is your recovery rate? How long does it take... Read More
Today, August 22, 2005, I am clean and sober for... Read More
Over my extended Thanksgiving weekend I took some time to... Read More
Kevin had worked as a barber at The Clipper Joint... Read More
"An unexamined life is not worth living."-- SocratesI have just... Read More
1. Once a week, visit somewhere you've never been before.... Read More
Direct Answers - Column for the week of July 1,... Read More
Direct Answers - Column for the week of May 5,... Read More
What you believe in the inside, to a large extent... Read More
In the moment of completing a thought or action, it... Read More
I've been to 64-countries, and yes money comes in handy,... Read More
Life is what happens to you, while you are making... Read More
Direct Answers - Column for the week of January 26,... Read More
What is the most essential part of your business? You... Read More
Creativity can be defined as problem identification and idea generation... Read More
Journaling is a powerful tool that can enhance our lives... Read More
Buying a VCR may not seem like a noteworthy purchase... Read More
"We come equipped with everything we need to experience a... Read More
Imagine sitting down in a relaxed setting -- a setting... Read More
Direct Answers - Column for the week of May 5,... Read More
Over my extended Thanksgiving weekend I took some time to... Read More
The story of the three bricklayers has been around for... Read More
This statement has stopped many a war in my house.... Read More
Riding a rush, being juiced, flying high-this is the feeling... Read More
Did you ever watch a bird in flight? Especially ducks... Read More
We set out walking along a route where one foot... Read More
The fever had been high late into the night, but... Read More
One of the biggest obstacles to our self growth and... Read More
Memorial Day weekend, 2004, found my wife and I along... Read More
Generosity, which includes the free, no strings-attached sharing of resources,... Read More
Wow, it's a new year and a new millennium! What... Read More
I have an unexpected relationship problem. It's hard to believe... Read More
Some people live in and talk about the past so... Read More
Maybe you've heard this one:"What does it profit a man... Read More
As a chef I have a unique perspective on anger.In... Read More
What areas of your life are working well? Career? Finances?Relationships?... Read More
In old buildings there was a boiler room where men... Read More
Inspirational Inspirational |